Hear me screaming, see me bleeding...

Fallen is open :O dun dun dun! Sims is up and awesome, and fantastic and many other nouns :P
Dom and Justin have worked incredibly hard to make an enviroment for rpers that's been created by rpers. Now understandably it will not float everyones canoe as it's dark/urbanny roleplay. But, give it a chance. The admin are a hard working bunch, and a lot of thought, time and effort has gone into not only the sim build but the whole array of characters you can choose from. The races are Mages, vampires, shifters, angels, lycans and demons, these are not the only playable races however, we do accept applications for other roles/races. If you'd like a sim packet in world contact either Dominic Darkmatter, myself (Acacia Bellios), Collin Andel, shyralei, ivy shadowcry, Eli Dailey, Rozz Maven or Calleigh Consantine... It really is worth checking out, even for the intricacies of the build. The pics just dont do it justice!

Tune of the day: Foo Fighters- Walk <33
Word of the day: Bemused

I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray...

I have decided... Dun, dun, dun, I need a break from sl related stuffs. RL is hectic, and yanno, I just can't actually be bothered with the nonsense... I need some peace and tranquility, I don't have an eta for when i'll come back properly, if you catch me on chances are i'll be clearing messages. I miss being a noob to sl. I'm jaded and tired, to be fair I just don't care anymore. ive dropped all my regular dj gigs, but hope to stay on as a fill so if the feeling takes me I can spin for the masses and be my usual offensive self. But for now, so long and thanks for all the fish <3

ps. the above may come as a shock to some =p but if we're that close, you have me on skype, talk to me :D

Don't stop give it to me...

Bouncey bouncey, ok, actually doing a LOTD, i know right, you're in shock, me too! Then, i'm off to watch doctor who, yus, captain forehead is back on the screens... Wheee <3
Oh excuse me a second, my geek is showing :|

Word of the day: Morose (love it, some fucker called me morose yesterday, it made me smile)
Tune of the day: KMFDM - Looking for strange (super strange mix)

LOTD:

On moi:
shape: Mines
Skin: Laq mima peach
Hair: [e] other
Tattoos: Para designs paisley temptress & (I love ampersands, just sayin) Pekka Hating me won't make you pretty.
Eyemakeup: Pekka kitty eyes red shadow
Collar: redmint
Necklaces Hod & Sinistyle (massive editing)
Piercing: Pekka (edited)
Shirt: Mon Tissu Cropped Tank top Grey
Jeans: Linc Tyra lowrise starlet wash

On Fate:

Shape: Hermony Kriz
Skin: Hermony Kriz ST3
Hair: Anaphora Kura (base) Anaphora freshcuts noir arcane
Tattoo: GoK The Rock
Glasses: Muism- Galliano glasses

Whatcha gonna do when the hounds are calling?

You run with the wolves while I hunt like a hound... I'm in a semi twisted bouncey hyper mood at the moment.... Soooo ... Actually I want people to suffer, how fucked up is that, I feel vicious heh I like it, needa keep this up, it's given me a nice little edge, worked in sl for 6 hours today o.0 no idea why, 4 djing, 2 hosting... I hate hosting, playing nice with people is just not fun, at least when i'm djing I can use tone of voice to call them names and not actually offend anyone =p lot's of things are lost in translation through typing, it's hard to communicate anything, I do that a lot, not intentionally, I just can't quite say what I mean, actually I suck at that face to face too. Usually ends up with me saying something I don't mean or not saying what I actually mean, but yanno what, screw it =p people wanna understand me they can grab a english to B dictionary =p

Needa give you a proper look of the day and I will, soon as I'm done djing I will do  pic, Ive got a few cute things i'm cycling through at the moment...

Word of the day: Cake (pick an option, although I know which is mine)

Tune of the day: Never Surrender!!!

Don't say I didn't warn you...

In the winding down hours
I let your heart down again
(What did I do to make a scene so gory?)
(I'm no better than the ones before me)
Old habits die hard
I always end up hating the end
(What did I do to make a scene so gory?)
(I'm no better than the ones before me)

I'm in the middle of a breakdown
Watching you scream
In the middle of a breakdown
Screaming at me
And by the way
By the way
What made you think you'd have it your way?
And by the way
By the way
Don't say I didn't warn you
That I'll always stay the same

Speechless and frozen
Uncomfortable silence again
(What did I do to make a scene so gory?)
(I'm no better than the ones before me)
I'm in the middle of a breakdown
Watching you scream
In the middle of a breakdown
Screaming at me
And by the way
By the way
What made you think you'd have it your way?
And by the way
By the way
Don't say I didn't warn you
That I'll always stay the same

Battered and bruised
Broken confused
It's time we both knew
Can't stop what I started
This time we both lose, lose
And by the way
By the way
What made you think you'd have it your way
And by the way
By the way
Don't say I didn't warn you
That I'll always stay the same
The same, the same,
I'll always stay the same
(battered and bruised)
The same, (broken confused), the same
I didn't warn you that I'd always stay the same

Now for something completely different...

 Ever do something incredibly stupid without thinking of the consequence? Something that means absolutely nothing to you could actually effect someone, even maybe hurt their feelings, though they'd never actually admit it to you :P Anyways, I did something a tad bit silly, and may have hurt someone I care about in the process, so I appologise, you know who you are...

Onto Fashion, while djing this morning at Sanctuary Rock I met one of the owners of Davinel (yay) Now I find it hard to like gothyesque kinda clothes, purely because i find the ones in sl pretty same, but I'm definitley an admirer of Davinel, it's goth but still sexy =p
 The fact you can buy the gear on sl marketplace makes it even better, I am a totally lazy shopper... So long story short the exceptionally generous Vice Cale sent me a stunning pair of boots, which made me want to do a dark themed post... So here it is... My look of the day... Ta-Da!

Tune of the day : Hinder - By The way

Word of the day: Salacious (had to add this, im sick of the overly sexed folk ive had to work with :| )

LOTD:

Shape: My own
Skin: Laq mima peach (with cleavage)
neck stuffs: necklaces/collar : Hod nothings necklace, sinistyle sharktooth (v.old) redmint studded collar
shirt: Davinel -Ferocious- Slowworm Skinning Pullover
Hairbase: Deetalez shaved flowery blonde
Hair: Dollyrotten Girlhawk (tintable)
Nails: Mandala palette long
Stockings: League Side gartered black
Skirt: *it circus jerk black
Belt: Blitz legacy belt
Facial piercing: Pekka Crisis
Tattoo: para designs snakebite
Boots: Davinel- Ivana <33 thank you Vice!
Sim: No salvation

Closeups :o

and da smexy shoesies <3

Oh look I posted! >.>

Allrighty, so we've established, I am a total slacker... BUT, I have my reasons, I can't be arsed =p
Fallen is coming along beautifully, fingers crossed just a couple of more weeks... We're currently doing a lot of decorating, and to be honest, after the pics ive had to google the last couple of weeks, if i see another porn stars vag ever again I may cry (Don't ask, you really don't wanna know) Other stuffs going well, djing a fair bit, shopping a fair bit. On a side note, I will say how utterly pissed off I am by two faced self righteous muppets who feel the world owes them something. You did this to yourself (all I'm saying on that subject) Anyways, I got lucky this week and my awesome wifey Shyn decided to do some blog pics for her post, so I'm gonna post them here too and be a total lazy arse.

Word of the day : Cocktard (i have no link, it's just fitting)

Song of the Day : Muse - Undisclosed Desires (someone dedicated this to me recently... Still makes me smile)

I'm wearing :
shape : made by moi
skin: laq mima peach
skirt: H+K white sugar panier (long)
necklaces/collar : Hod nothings necklace, sinistyle sharktooth (v.old) redmint studded collar
piercing: pekka crisis
makeup: damned you wish
tattoo: para designs snakebite
gloves: NS Mizer gloves
nails: mandala Long
Hair: magika Porcelain
corset : schadenfreude stripe and polka
shrug: zaara distressed shrug
shoes: slink ashia point ballet slipper onyx

And on Shynwifey:
Shape: made by shyn
Skin: *League* Skin Sia Fair -Storm
Eyes: REPULSE – Nocturnal Eyes
Collar: SiniStyle Posture Collar (D-Rings)
Hair: Magika – Nayla
Dress: [ SAKIDE ] Hallow’s Heart Dress White
Fishnet: [ SAKIDE ] Mesh Ripped Leggings (from the Bloody Kimono in the previous ZombiePopcorn hunt)
Shoes: [Gos] Curvaceous Boots in White

Special post to feature this pic <33 Marius Drammond of sl for taking it and making it epic, I want to rape myself, how awesome is that? Skin is laq elena in pale, collars redmint, hairs loq, head dealie is loulou, wings are archon from marketplace, feet from slink, dress and arm wraps from plastik... And as always my shape's home made, I do a sideline in shapes though to order :P

Tune to fit the mood is... Destroid- Mourn

Word of the latter part of the day is : Asinine

♥♥♪♫Aca♫♪ ♥♥

I'm not unfaithful but i'll stray...

Ive always been the quiet sort, I know right, you don't believe me :p But what I mean really is I try to avoid conflict at all costs in both sl and rl, I tend to run as soon as things start to worry/pressure me. Obviously that doesn't mean I cannot handle myself when the time comes, but, rather I choose not to get involved in anything that's going to result in added stress, paranoia, random insult swapping. Well the insult swapping is fun, but yeah, I'd rather not. I think I must be getting older, more mature, I'm not running this time. I'm standing my ground and it's kinda fun, so we'll see what happens. Rambling aside, life is goodish, djing is funs, as always... Found myself a couple of new DJ's to stalk and thief music from, so that's always fun <3 I'm sure they know who they are. Oh and I have total girly wood for Magika's hair fair treat Andarial with roots still (featured in last look of the day, and err the one before) It's rare that I stay interested in anything longer than a week or so, but oddly this habbit of phasing off and finding a shiny t-rex seems to be flitting currently too. Maybe I'm just not as ADD as I thought...

Word of the day: Polyamory
Tune of the day: Back in your head (tiesto mix)

LOTD: well you're going to have to wait for this, cant get pics to upload properly it scrambles em :o no matter what I try.


       

Fantasy or delusion?

 Random conversation at Zero this afternoon during Ms.Dori's set. Why do we play sl? Where does the line between fantasy and reality blur? Personal opinions time. In recent months Ive discovered how little i trust cyber peoples, I have a sleect few who I feel I know and have come to care rather deeply about, some of the closest friends I have, ive never actually met in person. But in saying that, there are others their I have called close and have eventually shown their true perfidious natures, but alas, I digress... Yes, for me second life is an extension of myself, let's not beat around the bush, it is a fantasy. And can be a pleasant one, my avatar has a way hotter arse than I'll ever have without copius ammounts of plastic surgery... :o
 I love to be the centre of attention in sl, hence why I dj and prance my barbie around in rather slutty outfits. I make wisecracks, I smart mouth and I'm sarcastic as hell. But, I'm that way inclined anyways, I mentioned my insecurities in an earlier post, and I know I mask them with bad humour. In rl, I'm not such an attention whore, I'm more the wall flower type until ive had a few drinks at least, but, I still try my hand at stand up comedy on a regular basis, and fall flat for the most part. In sl my friends call me stand-offish, in rl my friends call me friendly. Why is this? What makes me so cold in the game? I'm yet to fathom... I think I had a point when I started writing this, hum, maybe I should get back to it. If you play sl, and are reading this, then please comment, I'd love to know why you play. And whether you play in a totally roleplay capacity, or if your avatar is an extension of yourself in rl...
 Now, onto something completely different, speaking of fantasy and roleplay... Sim is close to completion!!!! Wewt, yay and all that Jazz. Dominic sent a notice this morning stating he'd finished the writing portion of the group work, therefor the backgrounds are actually done (Girly squee!) Build wise the Library, hospital and club are done, along with a massive part of the underground (again squee!)
Basically we're getting to the decoration time... My, my, this will be fun. Hopefully mr.self contained Dominic shall let us actually do some work now :D After all making shit pretty is something I'm good at!
I'll fill you in on more detail as and when it comes up...

Word of the day: Owned

Tune of the day:  Seabound - Domination

LOTD:

Shape: All my own baybee.

Hair: Magika - Andarial (roots edition)@hair fair.


Skin:Laq - Mima (peach)

Eyes: Repulse - Living dead eyes (dilated)

Skirt: *H+K* (white) sugar panier

Shirt: *Linc* Tankdress White Wet

Socks: *Linc* Garter Nylons Long Torn Black

Harness: Kyoot - Addicted to Dopamine

Piercing: -.HoD.- Bulletproofv3 - razor

Boots: Kboots - black

Collar: (r)M~ Studded Collar (No.03)

Wings: [europa] Archon Wings

Annnnd, we're back, I think I'm really going to have to start paying attention to you lot a bit more. My pc exploded a few weeks back, well, the motherboard fried, apparently ive been downloading too much porn (do'h) But, alas, I ended up ordering a new gaming monster pc, it's about time i caught up with the rest of the world, so you'll be noticing much improvement in lotd pics from now on. A lot's happened since I last posted, I've moved on, is the only way to say it really... I now dj for  Club Zero radio :D Discovering my old passion for ebm, trance and industrial. The dj's at zero are incredible, I even fan girl over a few, and well anyone that knows me knows I don't fan girl. Ever. Well, maybe over myself, but dude, i'm awesome. On another note, I'm heavily involved with the creation of a new roleplay sim. The Fallen. I am admin and secretary extraordinaire. We are not open yet, but suffice to say things are coming along beautifully. Allrighty mon petite chou, let's get this show on the road. Look of the day time...

word of the day : Revelation

Tune of the day: Deadmau5 vs Melleefresh - Attention whore (original mix)

Look of the day:

Shape: Homemade by moi.

Skin: Mima by Laq

Eyes: Repulse living dead eyes: Dilated

Tat: Repulse: Sinner

Shirt and Pants : Boom My milkshake shirt: Cherry & Seaman pants: Black

Makeup: Grixdale : Caustic- Panther girl

Hair : Magika - Andarial (roots edition) **Hair Fair**

Collar: Redmint : Studded

For you I'm Bleeding...

Love and hate are the same thing, you can't have either without passion. That's the easiest way of phrasing it I think. Ive loved so deeply and cared so much my hearts ached, and it still does. But maybe it is just me, my insecurities are great, I think I'm ugly, I think I'm stupid, I think I'm immature etc etc, seeing a pattern here? I'm starting to think it is all me, that my insecurities drive people away. I can't help how I feel, Ive lived with these negative thoughts for a long time, and everyone of them has a reason for being.  Maybe one of these days someone will see past them, maybe not, but either way life will continue, anyways, rant over for now. One final thought. And it isnt even mine.

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.
Lao Tzu

word of the day: Suckerpunch

tune of the day: Emily Browning- Sweet Dreams


Look of the day:  Shape: My own homemade dealie

Skin : Mynerva

Ears: Mynerva

Eyes: House of Eyez

Tattoo: Garden of Ku

Collar: Blitzed

Piercing: HoD

Lashes: Err I'll get back to you on that, I have her in like 4 sets

Hair: Magika

Shirt: Nomine

(I'll edit and add names/lm's when I can be arsed logging on sl for more than three minutes)

Life on mars...

It's been a funny couple of months, I do appologise for being away, needs must, my look of the days a bit lower down, my mood is emo :P Must add I have a total hard on for -.HoD,- at the moment :P epic piercings, accept no substitutes dagnammit.

word of the day : Lament
Tune of the day: Ive been waiting for you- David Bowie

Look of the day:
Shape- home made
Skin- *League* Amber Pale-Storm-
Hair- Clawtooth: Could I Resist? -Black Eye (modded)
Ears- .ILLUSORY. Elven Ear -b3
Eyes- DEN-DOU vampire eyes/Gold
Piercings- (spine, face, hips) -.HoD.- Digital Spinal Piercing v2-Razor, The Crow's Crux-Razor- F (modded), Thrust Piercing- Razor
Necklace- -.HoD,- The Crosary v4 (f)
Arm Piercings- Pap2 Corset piercings- arm
broken cuff Bracelets- Made by moi :o
Tattoo - [ATOMIC] Tattoo_Duck Frenzy (color)- Worn
Shirt- ~Clipped Top Black- shabby cat~
Jeans- [Miseria] Bitter Jeans- Charred
Boots- Kboots-black-